In my last post, I opened up about how exhausting healing and awakening can feel—how relentless the process can seem when it strips us down to our barest, most vulnerable selves. That post came from a raw, honest moment of struggle, a “come to Jesus” moment where I felt like I had nothing left to give.
But what I didn’t share is how that moment of exhaustion and frustration also gave way to clarity. It reminded me of the greater purpose behind my journey—not just the growth I’m going through, but the calling I’ve accepted to share that journey with others.
This post was born from that realization. As I sat with my tears, my anger, and my exhaustion, I felt a gentle but firm reminder from God: You said yes to this. You trusted Me to guide you. Keep trusting.
This reminded me of Isaiah 6:8, where the prophet responds to God’s call with, “Here am I. Send me!” Accepting the call is not just about the initial “yes” but about living that “yes” every day, no matter the cost or the struggle. This is the essence of surrendering to God’s purpose.
Saying Yes to God
When we say “yes” to God’s call, we’re not just agreeing to take on a task. We’re agreeing to step into something much larger than ourselves—something that will challenge us, shape us, and transform the way we live. As Dietrich Bonhoeffer wrote in The Cost of Discipleship, “When Christ calls a man, he bids him come and die.” This death is not necessarily physical, but a surrender of the ego, the need for control, and our worldly desires.
We cannot claim to be answering God’s call while simultaneously trying to control the journey. As Proverbs 3:5-6 reminds us: “Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.” This is the crux of answering the call—letting go of our plans and trusting His greater purpose.
But here’s the part that’s easy to overlook: answering God’s call doesn’t mean we’ll always feel confident, prepared, or even capable. In fact, it often means the opposite. It means stepping forward despite our doubts, our fears, and our imperfections. It means saying, “I trust You” even when we feel lost. As Paul reminds us in 2 Corinthians 12:9, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.”
Playing by His Rules
When I accepted God’s call, I realized something important: it’s not about me. My fears, my hesitations, my desire to stay safe and unseen—those are secondary to the work He’s asking me to do. To live this calling means to step out of my own way, to let go of control, and to allow Him to guide me.
The philosopher Søren Kierkegaard speaks of the “leap of faith,” the moment when we abandon our own reason and certainty to fully trust in God. That leap can feel terrifying, but it’s where true transformation begins. Jesus Himself modeled this surrender in the Garden of Gethsemane, praying, “Not my will, but yours be done” (Luke 22:42).
But surrendering doesn’t mean giving up who we are. On the contrary, it means stepping more fully into the person He created us to be. Ephesians 2:10 reminds us, “For we are God’s handiwork, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.” It means trusting that His plan is better than anything we could dream up on our own.
Still, it’s not always easy. There are days when I want to shrink back, to tell God, Not today. I’m not ready. But I’ve learned that obedience to His call isn’t about feeling ready—it’s about showing up. It’s about trusting that He will equip us with what we need, even if we can’t see it yet.
Living the Call
This blog is one way I’ve chosen to live my calling. It’s not just a place to share ideas or information—it’s a space to show what it looks like to live through the struggles, the questions, and the growth that come with walking this path. It’s a space to connect, to teach, and to reflect on what it means to surrender to something greater than ourselves.
I don’t want to just tell you what I see or hear, or what to do. I want to show you what it feels like to live through it. I want this space to be a reflection of God’s guidance, a place where honesty and vulnerability meet faith and purpose.
Answering God’s call isn’t about perfection. It’s about showing up, even when we feel uncertain. It’s about trusting Him to lead us, step by step, as we navigate this living journey together.
If you’ve felt that pull—the quiet, persistent call of something greater—know that you’re not alone. Saying “yes” isn’t easy, but it’s the beginning of something extraordinary. Trust that He will guide you, hold you, and equip you for whatever comes next.
As Psalm 37:23-24 reminds us: “The Lord makes firm the steps of the one who delights in him; though he may stumble, he will not fall, for the Lord upholds him with his hand.” Once you’ve said yes, you’re not walking this path alone.
Your Role in His Plan
Now, I want to ask you: what role has God called you to step into? Where is He asking you to show up in your life, to trust Him, and to let Him lead?
Maybe it’s in your relationships, your work, your creativity, or your personal growth. Maybe you’re being called to let go of something—or to embrace something new. Whatever it is, I encourage you to take a moment to reflect on where God’s voice is speaking in your life.
And as you consider that, remember this: your calling doesn’t have to look like anyone else’s. You don’t have to fit a mold or meet someone else’s expectations. God called you because He sees something unique and irreplaceable in who you are.
So, show up as yourself—fully, authentically, and without apology. Trust that He will guide you, even when the path is unclear. And know that when you step into the role He’s calling you to, you’re not only fulfilling a purpose—you’re also giving others permission to do the same.
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