“I Exist”: Finding Faith and Purpose in Suffering

I think I could stand anything, any suffering, only to be able to say and to repeat to myself every moment, ‘I exist.’ In thousands of agonies—I exist. When I first read these words from Dostoyevsky, I wasn’t just struck by their meaning—I felt them. They brought me back to one of the darkest seasonsContinue reading "“I Exist”: Finding Faith and Purpose in Suffering"

The Rot Before the Resurrection: When God Lets You Break to Build You Back (A Testament to God’s Promises)

What do you do when your life feels like it’s crumbling into dust, and God seems silent? Sometimes, it feels like He’s letting you rot—but what if that decay is the first step toward new life? Now, consider this: What if God is not silent at all? What if He’s speaking in a language thatContinue reading "The Rot Before the Resurrection: When God Lets You Break to Build You Back (A Testament to God’s Promises)"

The Energy of Christmas: A Celebration of Light, Love, and Connection

As the holidays approach, it’s easy to get swept up in debates, stress, or even frustration about what Christmas should be. Some argue over whether to say “Merry Christmas” or “Happy Holidays,” as if one diminishes the other. Others lament its commercialization or shy away from the word entirely, fearing it might offend. But atContinue reading "The Energy of Christmas: A Celebration of Light, Love, and Connection"

When Giving God the Glory Hurt Me—And Taught Me to Love Better

For a long time, I struggled with the phrase, “Give God the glory.” My mother used to say it constantly, especially during moments when I longed for her gratitude. As her full-time caregiver, I poured myself into serving her, yet she never thanked me—only God. It drove me crazy. Why couldn’t she see my efforts?Continue reading "When Giving God the Glory Hurt Me—And Taught Me to Love Better"

Alan Watts and the Evolution of Faith: A Personal Journey

More than two decades ago, my most active spiritual teacher and closest friend, whom I lovingly call Master Roshi, introduced me to the works of Alan Watts. At the time, I was at a crossroads—a place where my relationship with faith felt strained, weighed down by the inherited dogmas that no longer aligned with myContinue reading "Alan Watts and the Evolution of Faith: A Personal Journey"

Staying the Course: Lessons in Discipline, Faith, and Choosing Love

This morning started with a sense of clarity. As I woke up, a single thought repeated in my mind: “Stay in your lane.” It wasn’t just about sticking to my goals. It was a gentle reminder to trust God’s timing and not get distracted by fleeting emotions or the noise around me. I reached forContinue reading "Staying the Course: Lessons in Discipline, Faith, and Choosing Love"

The Light is Returning: Reflections on Growth, Karma, and Renewal

As the year draws to a close, I find myself reflecting once again on how nature’s cycles—like the quiet return of light after the winter solstice—mirror our own journeys through darkness, transformation, and renewal. They remind us that even the hardest struggles, though they may cut deeply, can lead to growth and balance if weContinue reading "The Light is Returning: Reflections on Growth, Karma, and Renewal"

Biblical Mysticism vs. Spiritual Deception: Walking the Path with Discernment

The idea of exploring the Bible through a mystical lens can be both inspiring and challenging. On the one hand, biblical mysticism invites believers into a profound and transformative journey of union with God, grounded in Scripture and marked by humility and love. On the other hand, the Bible warns of the dangers of spiritualContinue reading "Biblical Mysticism vs. Spiritual Deception: Walking the Path with Discernment"

A Solstice Meditation: On Gratitude, Pain, and the Courage to Speak Truth

A Journey into Gratitude and Awakening Winter solstice has arrived, marking the longest night of the year, and I’ve been reflecting deeply on the lessons of my life—particularly on the pain that has shaped me and the truths it has revealed. The solstice reminds us that even the darkest moments have their purpose, for itContinue reading "A Solstice Meditation: On Gratitude, Pain, and the Courage to Speak Truth"

Confronting Darkness: A Call to Sacred Healing and Connection

Growing up, I often debated with my father and his church elder friends about morality and religion. I believed, way back then, that moral character could exist independently of faith—that knowing the difference between right and wrong was enough. My youthful self argued that choosing good simply required knowledge and a personal commitment to actContinue reading "Confronting Darkness: A Call to Sacred Healing and Connection"