We say we value life. After years of walking people home, sorting what they left, and erasing them from the system, I am no longer convinced most of us mean it. If gratitude only arrives after the next upgrade, it was never the life being cherished. It was the accessories.
Author Archives: catacosmosis
The Common Sense Series | Ten Cents a Cup
What happens when we confuse consumer preference with divine provision? In a culture that has taught us to call convenience “self-care” and excess “blessing,” faith can become an excuse for refusing the wisdom and stewardship God has already given us. Sometimes the answer to “Lord, why?” is surprisingly ordinary: make the coffee, count the cost, leave the status behind, and remember where your security actually lives. The world may get loud, expensive, and superficial, but the standard of the Kingdom doesn’t budge.
Twin Tree Project Presents | Angel of Death: The Calling Few Understand (Short Film)
This is the story of a rare and isolating calling: walking people home as an “angel of death.” A testimony of decades spent in the thin places, the cost of obedience, and the quiet turn from resentment to gratitude.
The Art of Releasing || When the Void Becomes the Invitation
The art of releasing begins the moment we stop gripping what is already gone. Losing access to a place can feel like losing everything, but a void will not stay empty. Releasing with grace and gratitude makes room for something as wonderful or even better. This is not passive surrender. It is active trust.
The Author’s Perspective | On Mortality: Witness
Have you ever watched someone pass away? I don’t mean “heard about it later.” Not “gotten the call.” Not “arrived after the fact to sit with the body already still.” I mean actually watched.
Have you been present, sitting there as a body fails in real time? Have you watched the chest rise and fall, then rise less, then not rise at all?
Because I have. And I’ve reached a place in the understanding of my own grief where I genuinely don’t care how uncomfortable it makes people to hear about it. Why? Because it’s coming for all of us… and if you don’t really look at that, you are not actually living.
The Author’s Perspective | Before You Transition, Do These Things
Before you transition, stop existing and start living. Tell the people you love that you love them. Watch a sunrise without rushing. Forgive yourself for being human. Fall deeply in love with something. Learn how to let go. Be still. Leave people better than you found them. One day none of us will care about the numbers. We will only care whether we truly lived while we had the chance.
The Art of Noticing || Intuition
When you already know, and have for a while, but nobody else realizes it yet… just wait. It will show itself for them. They don’t have to say a word. Neither do you. Don’t waste your energy. Give it to God.
The Author’s Perspective: When the Mirror Stops Reflecting the Familiar
Looking at unexpected snapshots of myself, I did not recognize the person looking back. After years of caregiving, loss, and feeling like an orphan on earth, the face in the photos simultaneously said “this is who you are now” and “who are you now?” This is the quiet, tear filled space of delayed grief and spiritual becoming, where the outer form no longer matches the inner knowing, yet I remain a child of God, fully known even when I do not yet fully know myself.
Authenticity Unveiled | Emotional Supply and the God Who Cuts It Off
Today I want to talk about something most of the Church still soft-pedals: emotional supply. It’s not money. It’s not favors. It’s the deeper currency certain people feed on: your empathy, your presence, your heart, your energy. God is actively removing that supply, not out of cruelty, but out of mercy. He is forcing a reckoning.
The Art of Noticing || When The Struggle Becomes the Teacher
Choosing peace is choosing alignment with God instead of the need to be right. Through one of the hardest and realest friendships of my life, I learned that struggle and pain become our greatest teachers when we are willing to sit with them long enough to learn.
The Art of Noticing || Where God Still Speaks
The art of noticing begins in the sky, the way light still reaches for the edges of a storm, but the deeper work turns inward. It is the quiet attention we give to how our body responds before the mind even names what it feels. That is discernment. That is depth. That is where God still speaks when we finally put the distractions down.
Authenticity Unveiled | This Is What Spiritual Battle Looks Like
This is what spiritual battle looks like. A sobering reminder from the news about Perez Hilton. What happened is more than a public crisis. It is a visible fracture where body mind and spirit collide. Scripture warns that we wrestle not against flesh and blood. When someone begins turning toward the Word the opposition often intensifies. From professional experience I believe medication changes can open genuine vulnerability and the enemy is opportunistic. This is not a moment for armchair diagnosis or mockery. It is a moment for intercession. Pray for his deliverance clarity of mind and the true gospel to reach him in power. The battle is real. The One who holds all authority is greater still.
Science vs Spirituality | Signs in the Sky: August 12, 2026 + Forty Days
I’ve been watching the skies, and the patterns Scripture has trained me to notice. On August 12, 2026, a total solar eclipse, the Perseids, and a planetary alignment converge. Forty days later comes Yom Kippur. This is not coincidence, not astrology, and not fear. It is an invitation to lift our heads.
Authenticity Unveiled | The Real Insanity
I am used to being called mentally unstable for a spiritual perspective of the world. But open TikTok and you will see a far more destructive insanity, one rewarded by algorithms while those who read deeply and speak of the soul are dismissed.
Science vs Spirituality | Beyond the Psychological Self — Living from the Source
Living from the Source means the center of gravity has shifted. The primary question is no longer “How much am I getting back?” The deeper question becomes “What is God giving me to carry and to offer, and how do I steward it wisely?”
Science vs Spirituality | Beyond the Psychological Self — Why I Left the Field
I did not leave the field of psychology because I stopped believing it had value. I left because I could no longer pretend the map was complete. A framework that begins and ends with the human person will eventually struggle to make room for a Source beyond the person.